I’m watching the sun rise in Atlanta waiting to board a flight to Savannah. It’s rather nostalgic taking me back to many trips through here during my time in animal nutrition. I love landing in a familiar place in what feels like a different life.​

It’s been about 15 hours since our 4 year birthday bash ended and I’m swimming in love and gratitude for the life I’ve built. I’m also feeling the effect of preparing for a day and half Effiji Breath Intensive in Savannah, where my system is stirred and unsure of what lies ahead. This is a true example of duality in creation: throwing a party where my extrovert self is required, then immediately deep diving into inner work. 
We had an amazing day of fun with Casa de Mia, Amos Snider, Juice Cafe, Enchanted Bubbles, Happy Balls!, Free Spirit Delicacies, Energetically in Harmony, Sage’s Botanicals, and Bohemian Monkey. Each one of you shared love and magic to our community and it made me so happy. I have an incredible team of support and it was such a gift seeing everyone in action!

Now off to Savannah. I’m really excited about the chance to observe what a day and a half intensive looks like so I can offer these in Louisville. Currently, our community has the ability to do a single breath with me or Sarah Charmoli, or sign up for a 3-day weekend intensive with founder, Elijah Nisenboim and Director, Sarah (coming up October 4-6 if you’re interested). 

My goal with this trip is to offer something in between for those interested in doing more. As Effiji takes on a greater global presence, the opportunities for full weekends in Louisville may become fewer. 

Effiji is absolutely shadow work. This refers to the parts of ourselves that we tend to cover because they make us uncomfortable. So while I’ve done a lot of this work and feel pretty comfortable with all of my uncomfortable parts, all of me gets stirred before any kind of weekend intensive. 

Whenever I add anything to my plate, like a 4 year birthday celebration with a ton of people I admire and want to please, all of the fear comes up.  I paired that with the stirring that comes from going into a weekend intensive and saw very clearly the masks I wear - Blondie (my nickname for my ego) was out in full force with perfectionism blazing the trail! 

As I land in Savannah, I see another gift off letting myself shine through, that sweet and fiery Nicole that is always there. God bless it feels good to love so freely. 

Thank you all for supporting us for 4 years. Thank you for showing me what love is. I am a love agent for our community and I hope to meet you somewhere along your journey.

In a recent interview with The New Yorker, Wendell Berry talked about the importance of conversation and being led in life. 

“Somehow you just get led to where you’re supposed to be, if you’re willing to submit.” 

What a gift! So many times I’ve thought I was in control of my situation, despite how out of control it appeared, but in truth, I was simply submitting. Isn’t it incredible what life provides when you’re in acceptance of what is instead of in resistance? 

I took a trip to Boston a few weeks ago to attend an Effiji Breath weekend intensive as a certified facilitator for the first time. I landed in this intensive differently than I had previous ones. Tai chi and Qi gong complement breathwork on these weekends, because it helps us to understand a language of the body after the breath stirs everything up. 

The martial movements help me to better understand my energy and communicate with greater truth in my relationships. 

When you commit to a family, your life is full of blessings and love and lessons, but not easily personal development. This was the first time I've organized a trip just for me in over 10 years and it was difficult for me to integrate back into the gift that is my current life of responsibility. 

Our Sunday church service helped me to solidify how I can be in all of these roles and not lose myself in the process, and that is to totally embrace who I am. Gerry Boylan said, “Real spiritual growth only occurs when I claim my I am-ness. As long as somebody is doing something to me, I don’t have to be responsible for my feelings.”

Isn’t taking responsibility for oneself the only way to experience true freedom? And what a wonderful way to be in conversation with life! 

Wendell Berry states it so beautifully in his relationship with his wife, Tanya, “I work alone, but always with her presence in my mind. And she is somebody I want to impress. I’m going to write with the hope that it’ll help her to love me. I feel the stakes are pretty high. I’m in a conversation with her that hasn’t ended yet.” 

I am so grateful for all of you that I get to be in conversation with, and faithfully submit to the idea that I have control over the path this life takes.  

Last week my 8 year old asked me one of those pick between these two impossible choices questions. It was something along the line of having all the money in the world or whatever super power you wish, and I responded from a place of knowing that I’d like the super power to show everyone their God-given light that lives within them. I realized as soon as the words were coming out of my mouth that is what I do daily. ​

I write this blog for my creative expression with hopes that you take something away from it. I have to set aside time to simply be in order to create, and I think I’m consistent with it because in my busy life, it’s sometimes the only chance I get in a month to allow the ideas to percolate. 

Today, I prioritized weeding my garden knowing I needed to write. My garden is a lot like my life. I allow it to go and go and go until the right weather conditions allow for easy maintenance. Even then, I leave a lot that will need attention in the future, because it’s never going to be perfect and the harvest eventually outcompetes the weeds. 

Weeding around the dill this morning brought back memories of my grandma, who always had it hanging in her garage for her famous dill pickles. She took that recipe to her grave; none of her 6 children have been able to recreate it. 

But beyond that, the dill was the most delicate. It required deliberation to pull only the weeds that grew right alongside it, camouflaged by twisting stems to the mud. It was such a beautiful metaphor for the way I must work with others when they dive deep into Effiji Breathwork.
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When one commits to truly discovering their light by doing the shadow work required to get there, we become these delicate seedlings that require the gentlest of hands. This means allowing the discomfort, working with a trustworthy mentor to help navigate the process, and practicing patience along the way. 

I’m going to Boston next week to help lead a Megabreath, an Effiji Breath event with 100 participants and 14 Effiji facilitators, 1.5 miles from Walden Pond. If you know anyone in the Boston area, please share this event. I’d love the chance to breathe them and strengthen our connection!

I invite you to join me in the Cave this month to breathe in beauty and discover your light.

One of our offerings at the Cave is Effiji Breathwork. Effiji means to lovingly remove the mask. My role as a practitioner is to lovingly be in relationship with the breather while that mask comes off. It’s sometimes uncomfortable living as our true selves when we’ve been so used to reacting from patterns developed to protect us and hiding behind those masks for so long. In the 2019 Festival of Faiths Sacred Cosmos: Faith and Science, many of the topics revolved around relationship: relationship with the earth, relationship to spirituality, and relationship to one another. As Mother’s Day recently concluded, I recognize the gift of my most intimate relationships on earth, and am so grateful I’m able to be in them with greater presence than ever.  ​

These people, those closest to me, were my "why" behind diving into Effiji Breathwork. My teachers would say that relationships offer the place to practice deep self-discovery. I’ve done my best as a daughter, wife, mother, friend and neighbor but in an effort to be successful in the way I was raised to believe success was measured, I’ve worn a lot of masks. The only way for me to truly show up is to take off my mask so I interact as my vulnerable self and am fully available to those I’m in relationship with. 

During the Festival, Dr. Vivek Murthy gave the example of how relationships have taken a back seat to work. Accomplishment and reputation are emphasized over people - one may receive praise for moving across the country for a career advancement, but likely wouldn’t receive the same praise for moving across the country to be in relationship. 

What the? Who have we become?

Mary Evelyn Tucker stated that we are moving from a Declaration of Independence toward a Declaration of Interdependence incorporating Ecology, Justice and Peace. Good news, right?!? She referred to the concentric circle model of Confucius in her presentation. 

 “Only when personal lives are cultivated are families regulated; only when families are regulated are states governed; only when states are governed is there peace all under Heaven. Therefore from the Son of Heaven to the common people, all, without exception, must take self-cultivation as the root”

Dr. Murphy closed the hour, focusing on the structures that affect loneliness. He said, “There is nothing I have ever prescribed that is as powerful as love." WOW.  Read that again.  What a powerful statement.

I try to wake up and pray to follow God’s lead every morning - I believe my role on this earth is to lead in Love. Being available and vulnerable is an ongoing effort, and most notable in those relationships closest to me, but the potential for what life has in store if I do this is beyond my dreams. As Andrea Lane sang in church recently, “Take off your mask, I can see you anyway”.

Our April Health + Wellness Series: Body, Mind, Spirit, had record breaking attendance and some fantastic speakers from right here in Louisville. I've summarized some of what they shared and included their contact information so you can reach out if you're interested in furthering your journey. Thank you to all that came out to attend - be sure you're receiving our emails for updates on the next one!

Kim Evans, APRN and author of Transforming Health Care shared information about the APOE Gene, a genetic testing that she offers to help identify nutritional programs based on individual DNA make-up. 

As she stated, there’s been an increase in Parkinsons for those that have the 2:2 and 2:3 APOE combination because the brain is 60% fat, making this nutrient so much more important in these genetic types. The APOE combination of a 4:4 (only in 5% of the population) has shown a 90% chance of getting Alzheimers. Your genes are dictating what you should eat.

One of our favorite features of Kim's practice is that all genetic testing is anonymous! Some national life insurance companies have discriminated against people with genetic precursors for disease, so we love they go this extra step to ensure privacy.  

Kim also shared the importance of exercise, sleep and spirituality.

Jaime Seelmeyer, LPCC, M.Ed., CYT of Omology shared many descriptions on how depression can show up in the body, but my biggest takeaway was when she said, 'You are your greatest advocate' and to listen to your intuition when speaking with your doctor. 

From a physiological perspective, depression is oftentimes accompanied by chronic pain, digestive issues or a prolonged period of anxiety. She offered many nutritional suggestions such as vitamins D, B6, B12, and C, DHEA and amino acids, and suggested ruling out other issues with hormones, candida, inflammation, heavy metal toxicity and blue light exposure. 

One Eastern medicine approach, incredibly important and oftentimes overlooked in Western medicine, is an evaluation of prana, chi, or qi, otherwise known as life force energy. There are many practices to help with this including: speaking your truth or asking for help, laughing and crying, singing, chanting, speaking affirmations, breathwork, yoga, Ayurveda, Earthing or being in nature, and spiritual development. 

Patty Matsumoto with Energetically in Harmony spoke to the vibrational frequencies of emotion and physical matter, and how one can affect their own vibration with the use of crystal energy. 

“The government recognized the ability of quartz to hold information in 1958, which is why it is used as a carrier in our electronics today. Marcel Vogel went from an IBM researcher to crystal quartz enthusiast, where the Vogel cut was created for it's ability to direct and transfer energy." 

Patty also led participants in an energetic clearing and guided meditation around the Four Agreements, based on ancient Toltec wisdom. What are the agreements?
Be impeccable with your word.
Don't take anything personally.
Don’t make assumptions.
Always do your best. 

Below are some of the references our speakers suggested - please reach out with any questions you may have about the information they shared this month!​

The Perfect Gene Diet - Pamela McDonald
Emotional Intelligence for Performance Blog - Josh Freedman
The Body Keeps Score - Dr. Bessel Van Der Kolk
You Can Heal Your Life -  Louise Hay
The Four Agreements - don Miguel Ruiz

LOUISVILLE, Ky. - Louisville Salt Cave announced that it is launching a free three-part Wellness Series: Body, Mind, Spirit, that will introduce different experts around each subject matter to provide tangible tools in healing the entire self. 

“Every expert that has spoken at our previous speaker series’ emphasized illness is not solely physiological. We have so much opportunity to prevent illness, or combat it more efficiently, through considering whole body healing,” said Nicole Bartlett, owner of the Louisville Salt Cave.

Kim Evans, who kicks off the series on April 11, is an APRN and CEO of the Institute for Integrative Medicine. She is the author of Transforming Healthcare - Healing You, Me and Our Broken Disease-Care System. Kim is committed to transforming healthcare by offering an unparalleled experience to help patients achieve optimal health and wellness of body, mind, soul and spirit. 

On April 18, Jaime Seelmeyer, M.Ed., LPCC, CYT, Reiki Practitioner and owner of Omology Wellness, will speak on the origins and holistic management of depression. She offers clients a body/mind/spirit approach to mental wellness, including mindfulness, yoga, reiki and intuitive development.

“Dis-ease, both mental and physical, very often have root causes which are treatable. Too often these root causes go unaddressed in our western, out-dated medical model of treating mental health,” said Seelmeyer.

The third workshop in the Body, Mind, Spirit series will be led on April 25 by Patty Matsumoto with Energetically in Harmony. She is a Native Hawaiian of the Kahuna lineage and was born intuitive which placed her on the path of healing connected to her roots. She uses numerous spiritual modalities to access universal healing energy and has a personal understanding of crystals, minerals and stones.

In addition to sharing valuable information, each speaker will also hold a question and answer session for anyone curious about personal experiences. Each of the workshops will be held in the retail area of the Louisville Salt Cave and are open to the public. To register, please visit https://www.louisvillesaltcave.com/visit.html, click on Schedule Now, scroll down, click on Speaker Series, click the date or dates you would like to attend and enter your information. Or call 502-996-7000 to register. Everyone is welcome to attend any or all of the sessions.

In our last Effiji Breath class at the Cave, Sarah Charmoli talked about the fine lines between pain and joy, between emotions that exist on opposite ends of the spectrum, but not really. ​

March 4th marked the 7 year anniversary of my father’s death. The weekend was full of growth opportunities; multiple days of Ohio Valley dark grey skies, the height of my menstrual cycle, and a flood of feelings since I hadn’t over-scheduled myself to avoid them. Despite all my work toward being present, John had many chances to catch the flying debris from this tornado. 

On my way to work Monday morning to lead another breath, I heard Only The Good Die Young by Billy Joel, which dad  thought was a product of the antichrist until he lost his best friend at an early age. My body filled with joy from his presence and laughter around the irony of a lifetime living, sure of our convictions, all to be flipped on its side toward the end. 

Grief for me is one of the craziest emotions we get to experience, and when it can turn to joy or pure love in the flip of a switch, I recognize how much we create our own life experiences. 

I was really proud of myself for noticing when I would start to spiral and self-correct instead this weekend. This might mark the first time doing that…ever. I would get in my head and feel down then remember to take 5-HTP, I practiced Xyngyi energy movement, and I was gifted the opportunity to socialize with friends and surround myself in Spirit. So many beautiful gifts showered me, including the reflection from a man who gently holds my heart while I express my needs. 

Dad is with me always, and I’m grateful that I get to experience him differently now than when he was physically here. He taught me how to grieve, how to believe, and from the moment I met him, how to love unconditionally. 

I think what I was grieving this weekend was his voice that came Monday morning with the sun. I spent a lot of time processing and slowing down to allow whatever was there to rise, and relished in that thin line. 


P.S. As I wrap up my certification of Effiji Breathwork, I’m offering classes at a $10 discount for March and April. You can book these through our website. I’m also available for private breaths for one-on-one interaction and feedback. I look forward to breathing with you.